I’ve been thinking on what to do with this muse for a while now, especially now that I’ve been talking with Yuyu about bringing her back, because…. well, the most easy option would be to just shove her onto my multimuse and rp with Courtney from there, that way I wouldn’t have to do much in terms of anything.
But…. the more I think about it, the more I’m not sure about that idea just because May is a muse I put a lot of love and effort into—- this blog has about 8,500 posts of me fleshing her out and I’d hate to just. invalidate all of that for simplicity, because she deserves better, y’know?
But that said, when I’ve got LITERALLY a thousand followers but none of you talk to me, acknowledge my existence, or care when I’m gone? That’s a pretty bad feeling and that’s what’s ept me from coming back in the first place if we’re being quite honest.
So. I’ll likely be rebooting as a new blog.
Don’t mistake me—- I’m not gonna put days and hours into shit like icons and themes again because, honestly, I don’t have the energy to invest in something that ends up feeling pointless, y’dig? No, May is still gonna have her own space but it’ll be simple, quiet, and a lot more selective. Probably under a new url but definitely a new blog, where it’ll feel fresh and less cramped.
Thank you to all of the people who roleplayed with me here; I had fun, really, and I’m sorry I ended up getting too overwhelmed to handle this muse. It’s just intimidating when you have so many posts and followers and threads to worry about and stepping back for a little while ended up leading to me getting…. well, pretty much forgotten.
Once the new blog is fixed up, I’ll be posting a link here and you’re more than welcome to refollow and talk to me if you’d like. If not? That’s fine too, I understand. In the meantime, I can also be found on my personal, my art blog, my Seiko Shinohara blog, and mysymphogearblogs.
Alright… I haven’t been around lately, I know, and I’m sorry for that.
But! I have a reason other than laziness this time.
Firstly, I’m not sure how many of you are aware but I have some, uh…. health issues. Sometimes I get episodes where I’ll feel absolutely exhausted and lethargic for days, weeks, and during this time I tend to withdraw into myself to recoop. I become increasingly asocial not because I want to but rather I just don’t have the energy not to.
That’s a big part of it— it takes a lot out of me to come here and talk to people I don’t know well. Not that I don’t enjoy it! Just that it’s something that pushes the limits of what I’m used to. Usually I stick by my best buddy and a few others so placing myself in an entirely new setting with entirely new people is quite daunting and exhausting for me.
Secondly, there’s just…. a lot going through my head lately, y’know? I gotta do some thinking about myself and how I feel and how I’m going to address those feelings, if I ever do.
Because of that, some of my blogs are being placed on hiatus until I feel a little more ‘me’ and it’s not so much of a chore. You can still find me ( and rp with me!! ) at yurushiite and akunakii ( and, additionally, my personal blog at zweiwings ) in the meantime but I’m not sure I have the energy for much else as of now.
I’m sorry for any inconveniences this causes and I hope to pick up where we left off as soon as possible.
I really really wish I had the drive to be more active here but? Dang.
It feels like my leave was too long and that even if I want to come back, pretty much everyone has moved on or hiatus’d or deactivated or whatever. Like there’s just…. not much to come back to, y’know? Most of my mutuals don’t talk to me anymore and the few times I’ve tried starter calls I’ve gotten pretty much nada.
Not to mention the fact that a lot of you guys rp with other May blogs now so it feels like there’s just. No point, I guess? Which sucks because I miss this blog and I miss rping with you all but it doesn’t seem mutual and i just
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☓ Nondebatably singleship with Naomi. I will not do romantic au's and this relationship is across this board--- in all interactions, you can assume Seiko is dating Naomi unless otherwise specified.
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Legal Name: Haruka [Redacted] Alias: May Birthday: September 20th Race: Johtoan Parents: Norman and Mitsuko [Redacted] Homestown: Goldenrod City, Johto Gender: Cis Female Sexuality: Panromantic Pansexual with strong leanings to females. Occupation: Pokemon trainer; Hoenn League champion.
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Mainverse. All interactions default to this, unless otherwise specified. Post plot, Seiko is alive and well, currently dating Naomi. Verse is untagged.
Ghost AU. Takes place when Seiko is still a spirit trapped within Heavenly Host. Her personality as a whole is very remorseful and she is in a good deal of suffering much of the time. Despite this, she is a blue spirit and will not cause harm to others unless provoked. Tagged #♥: v: remnant;
Stylist AU. In which group 2-9 was never formed and Seiko hadn't known Naomi when she was younger. Because of this, the two don't meet until Seiko ends up in the hospital Naomi works at, thanks to a botched suicide attempt that nearly ended her life. Tagged #♥: v: stylist;
Yurikuma AU. Seiko is a criminal bear that has crossed the border to the human world with a single mission in mind--- find the girl who helped her so long ago and reunite with her once more. Tagged #♥: v: honeysuckle;
Seiko stays after school with her class during Kisaragi Academy's cultural festival to listen to Ayumi's ghost stories about Heavenly Host Elementary School. As they prepare to leave, Ayumi decides to perform a "Sachiko Ever After" ceremony with her classmates to comfort Mayu over her upcoming school transfer.
Shortly after they perform the ceremony, an earthquake occurs and opens a gaping hole in the floor that Seiko and her classmates fall through. Seiko and Naomi find themselves trapped together inside the long-demolished Heavenly Host.
While searching for a way out of the school, Seiko discovers to her dismay that she had lost her paper scrap charm from the "Sachiko Ever After" ceremony. She brings Naomi to the school's infirmary to mend her ankle (which she had sprained earlier), and then hears Yuka's voice crying out for Satoshi. Seiko briefly leaves Naomi to find Yuka, but fails and returns to Naomi to find that she has been attacked by a ghost in the infirmary.
Seiko tries to comfort Naomi, but Naomi cracks under the stress she had accumulated in the school and has an argument with Seiko: Naomi accuses Seiko of not taking their predicament seriously, but Seiko argues that she's just worried about her family at home. Their spat ends with the two going their separate ways.
Though hurt by Naomi's remarks, Seiko tries to make up with her via text message from her cellphone. Before she can send it, she encounters Naomi, who has become possessed by the malevolent spirits of the school. Naomi brings Seiko to the girls' lavatories on the third floor and hangs her by the neck inside one of the stalls.
Naomi then wandered the school aimlessly until she regained her senses and, unaware of her actions while possessed, returns to the lavatory to find the hanged Seiko barely alive. Despite Naomi's efforts to save her, Seiko suffocates to death.
Despite this, her spirit works hard to protect Naomi from Heavenly Host's sinister plans. When Naomi's guilt allows her to be nearly completely overwhelmed by the darkening, Seiko's unsent text message miraculously arrives in Naomi's cell inbox, which the latter opens to see. The same message, with a cheerful musical riff, keeps arriving every time Naomi has a guilt-ridden thought or thinks/talks to Seiko, apologizing for what she has done - as if Seiko is responding positively and with reassurance at every point.
With Seiko's efforts, the darkness leaves Naomi as she continues to say "sorry" and "I love you" to Seiko, who responds again and again with the "no hard feelings" text.
This blog takes place in an AU in which Naomi and Ayumi's attempts to revive the fallen are successful and the victims are spared their cruel fate.
Seiko is fortunate enough to not remember the events of Heavenly Host, her mind wiped of all memories of the Sachiko Ever After Charm; the only proof that she had ever fallen victim to Sachiko's wrath is a scar, a straight line that runs across the length of her throat where the rope had cut into her.
Her subconscious cannot be fooled quite so easily, unfortunately.
There are plenty of restless nights where sleep is stolen by graphic and terrifying nightmares comprised of blood, of torture, of death at the hand of a lover. Even if she cannot recall the events upon waking, that doesn't make her any less terrified and unstable.
Perhaps one day she will know the truth but for now, she lives a quiet, normal life with her friends blissfully ignorant to the traumas they shoulder and the grief that still haunts them.
Ghost AU Profile TBD
Stylist AU Profile TBD
☓ - Born December 22nd, 18 years old
☓ - Cis Female
☓ - Homoromantic Homosexual
☓ - 5'1
☓ - Criminal Bear
As a young cub, Seiko had infiltrated the human world with her mother with intent to hunt humans. Unfortunately things take a sour turn--- the two are seperated and Seiko is left on her own with little means to defend herself. Her savior comes in the form of a lonesome girl that cheers her up and leads her back to the door to her home, an act of kindness Seiko wouldn't forget even years later.
Finally old enough to fend for herself, she approaches the Judgemen with hazy memories of a past love she just can't seem to let go of. To cross the border as a human, however, is a wish that cannot be granted without a price:
To give up on love, or to give up on home?
Seiko crosses into the human world in disguise after forfeiting her ability to ever return to the bear kingdom; she walks amongst the blissfully ignorant civilians dutifully searching out that friend she holds in the faintest of memories.
